Jun 9, 2008


My best friend Vickie died four years ago of cancer. It feels like forever to me and I think of her all the time. We talked on the phone everyday for 8 years and when she died I didn't know how to cope and I still find myself thinking "I need to call Vickie and tell her"...........but then I realize that she isn't here. It has been super hard for me to loose such an amazing and close friend. I will never forget the week before she passed away I went to tell her a final goodbye and she was really weak and tired and she had bought me something for Christmas so she asked her husband to go down in her storage room to get it but he couldn't find it and we tryed to tell her that we could get it later but she wouldn't calm down and kept asking him to get it and in true Vickie fashion she wasn't taking no for an answer so she got out the bed (that she hadn't been out of in weeks ) she was so weak and feable and made the treck down two flights of stairs just to get me this present. She is dying and she is still thinking of me!!!! and I can't tell you how that made me feel. That is just the kind of friend that she was and I will miss her more than I could ever say. It will always be the best Christmas gift that I have ever gotten. She gave it to me in June and at Christmas time I got it out and I felt like she was here with me and it made the holidays a little more special for me. I think that she planned it that way all along. I hope that I will be blessed to someday find a friend like that again. I will cross my fingers and hope. I love you Vickie and can't wait to see you again. I send you all of my love and I am watching over your daughter like you asked me to do. She is as beautiful as you are and she looks like you more and more each day and when I look at her I see you and that always makes me smile. You would be proud of the woman that she is becoming. You have a space in my heart forever and remember....


(see how much I love you)

(this is how she would sign all her cards to me and her family)

This is Kirstynn her daughter. I love this girl like she was my own and am blessed to have her in my life. She went with us to our family reunion and made these matching rocks, she gave one to me and the other one to put on her mom's grave. She is a sweetheart. It makes me feel close to her mom when she is around. I know Vickie is looking down on her and smiling.


Gubba said...

Vickie was a sweet person and very genuine. I am so sorry you lost such a close freind.

Chalan said...

Mena, sorry for your loss of such a good friend. I'm glad you've stayed close to kirstynn and I'm so glad she got to come to the reunion. She is such a cute girl.

Emilee said...

Mena, your post brought tears to my eyes. Friendships like that are such a rare and wonderful thing. It reminds me to savor them and my time with my loved ones a little more. Thank you.

I too am glad Kirstynn could come to the reunion. She is a super sweet girl. I am glad I got to meet her.

Heidi said...

That was such a touching post! Sorry for your loss. It's hard to lose people close to you. We just have to live each day to the fullest and treasure those around us.