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| school carnival and life's ups and downs........ the littles school and the PTA put on a fabulous carnival this year, some of the woman in my ward were in charge and they ask me to help out a little bit. everyone involved worked hard and the hard work paid off we earned lots of money for our school and the kids had a blast we had lots of blow up toys to play on tons of games pizza and treats my kids are old enough to go and not stay "right by mom and dad" so they roamed around with friends which led regan and me( or is it "I") to ask....how can our little kids be this old? and where has the time gone? the answer we both gave is.....we have NO IDEA! anyway,i had wanted to take some fun pictures of the kids at the carnie but they were off running around so these are the only ones i got of them....(SIGH). the picture of mckray jousting reminds me of how i have felt as of late getting jabbed,sucker punched and feeling like life is beating the H*%% out of me all while im trying so hard to stay standing up you see, stress has gotten the better of me and i am having to really fight to keep stress at bay stress can really take its tole on you if your not careful i have lots on my mind questions like: will we ever be able to pay off regans student loans? will we ever have more money coming in than going out? its hard to believe that once upon a time we did. will i be able to find a better job? ....yeah i got a job, its not glamorous or what i want to do forever, but its a job. am i doing a good job as a mother,wife, friend, sister,daughter? am i living the life i want to? am i floating.....or am i really living? anyway........ you get the picture i guess it comes down to having FAITH having faith in myself and having faith in god having faith in myself is the one i REALLY, REALLY struggle with believing that all is well and that all will be well if i am doing all that i can and working hard and having faith it will all work out when i stop and think about all that i have and all that i have to be grateful for the stress seems to LIFT but, when i focus on the "crap" of life well, then everything seems CRAPPY right now i need to focus on what i DO have instead of what i DON'T have focuse on the postive qualities that I DO have life is as EASY or as HARD as i want to make it its really all about ATTITUDE isn't it?? heres to happier days and better attitudes |
